absolutely lonely.

i hate being home alone.

i absolutely hate it.

sure, i love having the house to myself, and being able to watch whatever i want on tv, and not having to worry about using up all the hot water or playing my music too loud.

but i hate being scared at night.

i hate having to make my own meals.

i hate when carter is having dinner with his family and i'm.. not.

i hate how quiet it is.

i don't do "lonely" very well. it eats me up. it freaks me out. 

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