TODAY is never a good day.

I hate February 28.

It's mostly the most feared day of the year for me.

Wanna know why?

Do ya? Do ya?

Okay, I will tell you!

February 28, 2003. Early morning. House fire. See this beautiful house?

By Roxanne Karnas

Gone. Burned to the ground. How horrible is that? I miss this house so much, and every year on this day, my heart  hurts for this house. I tend to drive past where this beautiful house stood, and imagine what it would be like if it was still there. Would I have painted my room from pink and white to something more mature? Would I still play up in the loft? What would be in the playroom? Would we have built an addition so the boys could have their own rooms? Would Gramma and Grampa still live with us? But I guess there is no knowing the answers to these questions. There is only the present and the future, neither of which have this house.

February 28, 2008. I was so sick. So cranky, so sore, so ill.

So diabetic.

This is the day I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes

Now, I'm basically almost over the fact that I'm stuck with this horrible disease for the rest of my life.. But I am not happy about it! It's a really good thing I have such supportive family members, namely Justin (who is also diabetic..) and my mom (who is basically pro at this business), but also Carter (who technically isn't family..) who loves changing my sites, and giving me needles, and bringing me insulin when I run out. I do wish they could find a cure though. Nothing would make me happier. 

I guess today is also kind of a big deal.. Me & Carter have been dating for 8 months! Woah! :)

[Ps.. Look at this post - I put pictures on!]


sup blog?!

Nicole - Hey! I have some guest bloggers with me today!! Here's Erica..

Erica- Sup!

N - And Viktoria is downstairs getting dressed up all pretty or something.. haha :) But she'll be joining us shortly. In the meantime, Ethan is trying to prick Erica's finger with my blood glucose meter. It's kind of a dramatic. OH! She did it! And no blood. Fail.

E - I didn't feel it at all!

N - What a drama queen. :)

E- Well in my defense the needle looked like a fricken killing machine!

Viktoria - HEYYY YALLL!!! WAZZUP???? So pretty much this is the best blog EVER!! Paul is reading behind me and is pretty much the sexiest guy EVER!! Tomorrow is Sunday :( Which means I have to go home... Sad day. Hopefully my neck isnt broken. MADDIE is here too! ( Its pretty much a party over here) 

N - Bummer that Tori is leaving. :( I wish she could just live here FORVER ! but she has school. It's okay, cause soon I'll also live in Edmonton and our schools will be like a stones throw apart! so we can go back to being best friends forever!!

V- Yeah pretty much it will be awesome, we will party ( and your invited!!) Adrian is here now.. and wearing a pink sweater which I bought for him. He just asked  "what is that!?" yep. 

n - silly boys don't understand anything.

v- Neither do I 

n - oh nbd, you'll be fine. :P

Nicole + Erica

Nicole + Viktoria

Nicole + Viktoria + Erica


Ethan tried to ruin the foto.



Read This - It'll make your freaking day.

I drove halfway to Lethbridge at 2:09 this morning.


There is no good reason for driving halfway to Lethbridge at 2:09 in the morning. Ever.

Apparently I had a pretty realistic dream that woke me up and had me convinced that it was actually 7am, not 2.

It's a good thing I ended up checking the time once I got to Wilson Siding, otherwise I would have probably gone all the way to work and had a miserable day.


some hearts (carrie underwood..)

i don't know what i did to deserve to have such an amazing life, but i'm sure glad i did it! everything about my life makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me grateful to be alive. i love my family, my aunts, my uncles, my cousins, my cousins' children, my brothers, my parents, my grandparents.. did i leave anyone out? i love carter. i love the girls i work with. i love the opportunities i'm given. i love my hair and my eyes and my body. i love the gospel. i love jessica and viktoria and david. i love marshall and adrian and ethan. i love my new friends. i love my old friends. i love that i was able to graduate high school. i love that i can sing and play the piano. i love being in love.

don't get me wrong. i am in no way perfect. my life is full of ups and downs and flips and flops and turns and dives and jumps. but it's the highs that make the lows worthwhile. it's the smiles that wipe away my tears. it's the giggles that counteract  angry eyes and confronting words.

as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down, probably will. you'll have your heart broken - probably more than once - but remember how it felt, because you'll break others' hearts too. you'll fight with your best friend, or maybe even fall in love with them. you'll cry because time is flying by. so take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, and tell someone off; speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love. and most of all : live in the moment, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

i hope you can find something to be grateful about every day. i hope you can love everyone you come in contact with. i hope you can let go of grudges, and hold on to the precious moments every day that make life worth living. i hope that someday - today or tomorrow, or a hundred days from now - you can be as lucky as i am.

'some hearts just get lucky sometimes.'


Here we go..

A traveling! Me & Carter & mom are off on a whirlwind adventure to GF,MT in the mornin'!!

Note.. If you have an earache.. Blow dry it! It works! Really!


Some day...

Snow, missing my alarm, getting flipped off, nausea, and an ear infection... I saw Carter for a grand total of 45 minutes, and I had to miss rehearsal (again). I guess, on the plus side, that I do not have to go into work tomorrow, and I'm posting this from my mother's new iPad!

Pray for me...... :/


This is the life..

Alright, listen up! I have the greatest boyfriend ever!

As you're all very aware, yesterday was Valentine's Day. And I dunno about you, but I fully got spoiled!!

First.. He made me a delicious dinner! Penne with tomato basil sauce, and a Caesar salad. I supplied dessert - cookies. :) He was a perfect gentleman. He did everything! I wasn't allowed to help! He even lit candles!

Second.. Flowers. My, how I love flowers. They're orchids.

Third.. The gift certificate he gave me for a day at the spa. Including: manicure, pedicure, acrylic nails, and a half massage!! Does it get any better??

We curled up on his floor and watched The Office, then visited with his dad for a bit.

It was better than anything I could have ever imagined. I am so lucky to have such a great guy!! <3

Cooking the noodles!

Taste test. :)


FINISHED! It was sooo good!

Hahah :) 
I taught him how to braid!

Isn't he awesome??




I Love Us!

Happy Valentine's Day! Or Singles Awareness Day, however you want to celebrate it..

I'm pretty pumped for today.. Haha! :) In a couple hours I'll post some pictures so you might understand what has me so excited. But in the meantime..

Enjoy these songs from a hopeless romantic. 

Marry Me - Train
Lucky - Jason Mraz, Colbie Caillat
Why Wait? - Rascal Flatts
Things I'll Never Say - Avril Lavigne
Then - Brad Paisley
Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
Some Hearts - Carrie Underwood
Can You Feel The Love Tonight - Lion King
You're The One That I Want - Grease
If We Were A Movie - Hannah Montana
Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
My Valentine - Martina McBride
I've Got The World On A String - Michael Buble
F*in Perfect - P!NK
God Blessed The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts
You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
Ours - Taylor Swift
Perfect Two - Auburn

Update : His room has been trashed. :)

I was right pleased with all my work.


There Goes My Hero.

LOOK! My handsome army boy graduated from his BMQ course!! :)

Yay for Carter!! :)

Mmm! He's ALL MINE!

We're pretty happy about life.

Fun fact : I LOVE to curl my hair.


so close.


This might be the most revered, loved, but hated holiday of the year. I've always been a hater of VDay.. But this year is different lol. I am so excited!! 

Stay tuned..


Bawk Bawwwwwwk.

Nothing - and I mean NOTHING - beats a good hug.
Kisses on the forehead are the perfect thing to say without saying anything.
"You're beautiful" is the simplest, but most profound statement.
Blind dates are more fun when they're actually blind.
Sugar cookies, pizza, and America's Funniest Home Videos are a sure way to make sure your day is awesome.
It's okay to drive twenty minutes to see someone you love, even if you can only see them for ten.
Dogs belong on the floor, not on the bed.
Hippos sound like *waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar*. Whoda thunk?
Goldfish hate mini golf.
Two year olds always love naps.

Life is too short. Feel free to smile, laugh, and cry as you please. In the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, then it's not the end!


New Development..

In relation to this post, I'm the biggest chicken.. Me and Carter have started watching two movies in the last two days that we only got like 20 minutes into before I wimped out - "The Crazies" and "Paranormal Activity". Maybe it's because I don't want to embarrass myself in front of him (ya, cause I've never done that before!) or maybe it's because I know my imagination will go crazy and I'll either become a sadistic murderer, or be haunted by some demon of the underworld.. But I'm trying to find the courage to watch them!!

What The Quail?

I was witness to the strangest thing this morning.. A quail. Crossing the highway. The intersection between HWY4 & the 845. Why so strange? I could barely see the road because of the blowing snow.. But this quail was braving the elements. It made me super jealous.

I know nothing about anything related to animals, birds or otherwise. But I do envy their ability to stay warm in the winter. I am so sick of the cold, and of being cold. Why can't I just get on my coat of feathers or super thick fur and hibernate until spring? 

Not to mention the fact that I am super sleep deprived! I'm just dumb, and stay up too late when I have to wake up early. But I have good reasons! 

Reason #1? The play, 'Annie Get Your Gun'. Our rehearsals go Tuesday-Thursday from 6 or 7-1030. YAWN! So then, naturally, I can't just go to bed, due to

Reason #2. Carter. In the mighty wise words of Dr. Seuss.. "You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." I prefer being with Carter over sleeping any time. Which is absolutely ridiculous, because I LOVE sleep!! I guess the good thing about him being gone on the weekends is that I sleep! This last weekend I slept from 11-11, and 10-8. Mm. So good. 

I guess I just need to find a happy medium, where I can balance rehearsals, Carter, and sleep!


Chew Love

"You're such a turkey!"

"Then you're my chicken!" :)


Quote of the Day.

Uh huh.. 3 posts today. Forgive me? Kaythanks.

"Father in Heaven knew that you would face challenges and be required to make some decisions that would be beyond your own ability to decide correctly. In His plan of happiness, He included a provision for you to receive help with such challenges and decisions during your mortal life. That assistance will come to you through the Holy Ghost as spiritual guidance. It is a power, beyond your own capability, that a loving Heavenly Father wants you to use consistently for your peace and happiness." - Richard G. Scott

How right Richard G. Scott is... There are so many choices I have to be making, and decisions that I really can't do on my own. Sometimes I feel so alone, because I feel like talking to anyone would be silly because I am at the age where I should be able to make these choices by myself. It's really quite stressful, as anyone who has ever been 18 would know. Luckily, Heavenly Father knows me and how stubborn I can be, and He has given me the gift of the Holy Ghost. Now, I always thought of the Holy Ghost as a completely separate being from Heavenly Father and Christ (and He is, yes), but then I found this scripture, and I realized that the Holy Ghost is an incredibly good messenger!

John 14:18 - I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.

I am never alone. Ever. All I ever need to do is get off my stubborn feet, down on my knees, and pray to the Lord to send me comfort in my decision making. Although, I also need to remember this :

D&C 9:8 - But, behold, I say unto you, that you must study it out in your mind; then you must ask me if it be right, and if it is right I will cause that your bosom shall burn within you; therefore, you shall feel that it is right.

I am so grateful for the knowledge of the gospel in my life! :) It's such a comfort to me!! I love the priesthood, and I am so happy that I get to have 4 worthy priesthood holders in my home, and that all my best friends also hold the priesthood! I am so glad for the church leaders, and my bishop, and my visiting teaching companion. I love my parents, and I love their testimonies. I love institute, and I'm super glad I got to graduate from seminary! I'm thankful for the opportunity to take the sacrament every Sunday, and to listen to the beautiful hymns. I lovee them!! 

:) Elder Paxman!

Look at this handsome boy! Haha! :)

This, everyone, is my very best friend in the whole wide world. His name? 

David Scott Paxman.

He's currently serving an LDS mission in Georgia, Atlanta.

And guess what!

He gets home in


I can't believe he's almost been gone for a year! 

How quickly it goes!

If you'd like to write him - which I know you would - his address is :

Elder David Paxman
112 Governers Square, Ste A
Fayettville, GA

It's Super Sunday!!

Ladies and gentlemen!!

It's that time of year that we've all been waiting for!!


Superbowl Sunday!! Superbowl XLV!!

Unless you live under a rock, you know that this year's game is featuring the Pittsburgh Steelers and the Green Bay Packers.

Guess who I'm cheering for?

I'll give you a hint.


Hair, Hair, Hair, Hair, Hair, Hair, Hair!

Let it fly in the breeze, and get caught in the trees.. Give a home to the fleas in my hair.


October - January 



Look at how long it is!! Oh my heavens!! Okay, so I lovee my hair right now!! Myriam dyed it for me and it turned out amazing! Even my hair dresser - with whom I worked for 3 months to get it super blonde! - loves it! She said.. 'It looks exactly how it would if I had dyed it for you! Nice work!' and I said.. 'YES! Success! Nicole + Myriam FTW!!' :) I hope you guys like it too!!!


Ramblings! :)

- Being home alone is the best / worst thing ever. I love being able to watch whatever I want, and sleep in silence, and bake and clean in peace.. But I hate having to deal with the dogs. And the dark! I have a crazy imagination when it comes to being home alone.

- I love apples and peanut butter.

- Chocolate chip cookies are good for the soul.

- Brunettes have more fun.

- JK Rowling is an amazing author. I kind of hope she writes another series.. But I don't really at the same time, because Harry Potter is such an amazing series. I would hate to taint my vision of her if the next series wasn't as good.

- I'm super glad I get to have Gina to discuss school with!! <3
 Speaking of Gina - Girl! I need a countdown for days until Wicked! Help me out?! How many days are we at?? Also, I am super wishing that you would change your Facebook name to Gina. I ALWAYS am so confused when I cant find you in my friends list!!

- My boyfriend is the best cuddler in the world. Even when he's not around! I still cuddle up in his sweats and hoodies and tshirts!! :)

- I have a new guilty pleasure... Starbucks Vanilla Bean Frauppacino & Subway.

- Steelers are going to win Superbowl IXV!!!

- If anyone is wondering, I've found my future engagement ring and wedding band.. Check these bad boys out!! Engagment - 1 , 2 .. Wedding - 1 , 2 ..


- I miss all 4 of my best friends tonight.. David is in Georgia - hopefully enjoying the snow! Viktoria is in St. Alberta.. Jessica is at WSU.. And Carter is at the regiment, getting ready to go on a march (?) tomorrow. Boo hoo!!

- Happy Chinese New Year!!

- Tomorrow, I'm doing laundry, cleaning my bedroom and bathroom, getting my hair cut, and bathing Gizmo (cause she freaking reeks SOOO bad!!). Sunday, I'm tidying up the rest of the house. Luckily, since I'm the only one home, this only means I have to pick up the dog toys and empty the dishwasher and fill it again!

- I'm hoping to get rid of the cold - pronto!!

- If anyone knows of anyone in Raymond or Lethbridge (or surrounding areas!) that has a pair of super cute - or not so cute - (maybe even with red embroidery?) cowgirl boots in size 9 or 10 that I could borrow until the beginning of April.. PLEEEEEASE let me know. I really don't want to have to go out and buy a pair just for this play!

- Oh, also. If anyone owns the dvd of 'Annie, Get Your Gun!' that I could borrow.. That would be mucho grande! Since I've never seen it, so I have NO clue what the story line is.. It's mucho confusing!

- I would love to learn to speak Spanish, so I can say mucho grande and not sound like an idiot. Any tutors out there? Hmm?

- Valentine's Day is in.. 9 days! This is also 7.5 months (but who's counting?) of N+C. My half birthday (February 17!) is also coming up super soon! I'm accepting presents, including (but not limited to) gift certificates, cash, and gas money. Blank cheques also make a great gift! Make sure it's made out to Nicole Martin. That's Nicole : N - I - C - O - L - E , with no H; and Martin : MAR - TIN. Thanks, y'all rock!!

- David says y'all. In his letters, in his emails.. I'm afraid of what he'll sound like in a year when he gets home!

- Yup. David gets home in THIRTEEN months!! THIS IS COMPLETE AND INSANE MADNESS!

- I am waiting to get my acceptance letter back from NAIT!! EEK! I can't even wait any longer!

I'm all out of things to ramble on about. Expect another random post tomorrow. Maybe a picture of my new hair, since it's brown and all... Mmmhm that's right!! :)


Fred keeps touching me!

So the best way to achieve a goal is to set baby steps. Idea? To do well on my New Years resolutions, I'm gonna set goals every month. 

Goals for February :
- Try again with the whole 'no pop' thing, cause I sort of failed miserably in January. 
- Save money!!
- Apply for scholarships. 
- Change banks.
- Get a decent amount of sleep. 
- Read 1&2 Nephi
- Learn to better organize my time.