outings, peanut butter cookies, and tears.

Taylor and I had our first outing to the mall. And for a two year old and an unexperienced temporary mother, I think we did relatively good!

Madi  has decided that I make dang good cookies! Good thing, too. I almost beat her. :P

I kinda feel bad that I let Taylor cry herself to sleep.. But she needs a nap, and me going in there to comfort her is not going to help her fall asleep!!

Turns out I only work today and tomorrow. Yes, this means my long weekend is actually Thursday-Monday. Jealous? Yeh, you should be! :)

On a more serious note, my mom's cousin Brian Atwood died today. :( He has a son that's a couple years younger than me, and another son that's like Justin's age. He's been through a lot though.. He didn't take care of his diabetes when he was younger (oops..) so earlier this year he had his foot amputated because there was no circulation in it. Sunday morning he had a heart attack, and he had been in a coma since then. This morning the doctors pronounced him brain dead, so his family pulled the plug. However, death is always a terrible thing. I don't know if I can bear going to the funeral, especially knowing that I'm on the same path he was when he was my age. Look how that worked out! I know I need to take better care of myself.. And maybe I can use Brian as my inspiration and motivation. Hopefully. My prayers go out to his family, especially Dallan, who I've come to be pretty close with.

' is for fun! '

sometimes i like when school starts.. and i don't have to go.

always i like hanging out with carter.. and nathan. :)

sometimes i like eating sloppy joes.. and watching a movie.

always i like triple dates.. with erica/ethan and mike/holly. even if we do just watching 'kingdom of heaven' and have to leave before it's even half over because it's way too late to function (even though it's only 10..)

you and i would be a tough act to follow.

- potato salad and bbq sauce.

- macaroni salad and bbq sauce.

- banana cheerios.

- french toast.

- crepes.

- cold chili.

- cold alphagettis.

- falling asleep behind the wheel.

- quilts draped over the whole front seat of the car.

- fighting over radio stations (100.1? opera! yes!)

- walking around henderson.

- watching fireworks at henderson.

- watching fireworks at thunder in the valley.

- being stuck in blairmore for 2 hours after thunder in the valley.

- blanket forts.

- suffocating.

- supercycles.

- watermelon!

- cheesecake. :)

- monsters.

- watching lightning at henderson.
- angry birds.

- friends.

- arrested development.

- chuck.

- the ultimate cake off.

- "love" notes.

- wendy's.

- tents.

- your pillow. 
- baseball.
- golf.
- new phones.
- michael buble.
- c-train.
- peanut butter cookies.
- salt (the movie, not the mineral!)
- small ears.
- huge hands.
- yellow.
- yankees.
- beach boys.
- water.
- driving.
- calgary.
- using my phone as a spy tool?
- 7-11 wedgies.
- booster juice.
- subway.
- olives. :(
- despicable me. (i said a dart gun!)
- 3d glasses.
- grad all nighter.
- cat naps.
- middle names.
- pictures of hitler.
- new cars.
- pictures.
- squire snatching phones.
- babysitting
- you taking 1203987 pictures of nothing.
- falling asleep during movies.
- mini golf.
- black lights.
- white shirts in the black lights.
- falling in the pool at mini golf.
- riding the bug at the park.
- going to the park.
- dancing at the park.
- finding decent grass at the park.
- singing.
- writing letters.
- conference
- broken windows
- building forts out of sticks and balls
- making kraft dinner
- movies on the laptop
- reverently holding hands
- abusive relationships
- dr. phil
- boney knees
- boney elbows
- sore backs
- back rubs
- matching shorts
- blonde hair
- your sisters :)
- my girls
- snow
- fitted sheets
- the life of a soldier
- the town
- harry potter 7. :)
- cheesecake and banana splits
- always knowing someone in walmart
- your dad
- cleaning
- songs that make me think of you
- 'did you learn that in army?'
- your mom.
- favors.
- stupid arguments
- winning.
- losing.
- questions and answers.
- mysteries.
- reading.
- glasses.
- diet dr. pepper
- christmas presents.
- the globe.
- weekends off.
- great falls.
- blackberrys.
- facebook.
[last updated - december 4, 2010]

Here's to the good times, here's to the bad times. Here's to the best of times, here's to the worst of times. Here's to the past, and here's to the future. Here's to my best friend. :)

>>photo credit to www.photo.net

there comes a moment.

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them.[...] As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them - are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."
— Marilyn Monroe

Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.  

- Juno (2007)

Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.

Young Allie: So what?

Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

- The Notebook (2004)

praise to the weekend.

whoever thought of weekends was a complete genius!

seriously, i can't even imagine not having a break!

i especially love that i get a 3 day weekend, occasionally 4 or 5 day weekends! :)

anyways, this weekend... well. where do i start?

after my terrible afternoon on friday.. i cleaned my room, which means i

- vacuumed up all the confetti that kimber trashed my room with. (see picture below.)

- cleaned my bathroom, which is a feat in itself..
- and did 6 loads of laundry. yes. 6. SIX! i don't even know what i've been wearing in the last 2 weeks, since i've had NO clean clothes! but it's okay, 'cause now my closet is PACKED full of clothes.

**in the process of putting my laundry away i realized that i have seriously like 9 pairs of jeans. of those 9 pairs.. there are 2 that fit me. see, i have zero buttocks, which is a result of me sucking at diabetes this spring. so i decided i'm going to attempt to make a jean blanket! i'm kind of excited, cause i LOVE jean blankets! with some nice flannel on the back.. yeah. yay me! :) 

anyways, so after i cleaned my room i went to lethbridge with carter and kyle (carter's friend from stirling) because kyle wanted to go to the dance. turns out i feel super old when i go to the youth dances, and carter hates dances.. so we just chilled. haha. we're so lame. we even were home at midnight. hahah. we suck.

this morning i was rudely awoken - just kidding - by my mother, because we had to go to lethbridge to get my stupid car. so i got home around 1130, showered, put the remainder of my clothes away, and started cutting up my jeans. :)

THENNNN i got my hair cut. :) haircuts are a huge deal for me, cause i just like having my hair long! (even though it's not even long!) i ended up wimping out and not cutting any length off. just got my bangs cut a bit, and the rest of it thinned out, cause turns out i have a ton of hair.

later i think i'm going to the Raymond Comets football game.. even though i've graduated.. does that make me a loser? i don't think so, since all my friends are still in high school (well. if i had friends..) and my boyfriend is filming it. so then i can at least go home with him or something! i don't know. gurr..

you know, my blog is SO gay. all i do is talk about my life. no one cares! hahah. oh well. i'm so over it. if you're reading it you obviously enjoy something about it. good.

oh. and if anyone has any jeans they want to get rid of... lemme know! they'll make a great addition to my blanket!!